Complain

I hate when people complain and typically try not to because no one really cares to hear it.  But now it’s time for my pity party.  Yesterday I had a lingering migraine all day.  I had work to do and orders to process so I was stuck on the computer most of the day which didn’t help.  My seasonal allergies finally started to subside and I get knocked out by a migraine.  Early bed time for me hoping for a better day tomorrow.

“First” Dr. Appointment

Yesterday was our first real doctor appointment with the doctor Jessica chose to be her OB.  Even though it seems as if we have spent plenty of time in doctor’s office already it was actually our first time seeing our doctor since Jessica found out she was pregnant.  It was a very low key appointment, which I did not mind after the roller coaster of the first few appointments. We discussed the first trimester genetic screening and we handed a folder of information basically a short version of What to Expect When You’re Expecting.  We scheduled the 1st trimester screening and were out of there.

One of the items in the folder discussed cryo-freezing stem cells from the umbilical cord/placenta.  I am very intrigued by this concept.  I don’t claim to be very scientific, or read regularly on the subject, but from what I understand it is a very promising field medically.  Taking these cell and having them frozen for future use for our child may be the first and greatest investment we can make on their behalf.  I can only imagine the power of stem cells in 30, 40, 50, 60, 70 years.  They may have the power to cure every disease or illness suffered by an individual.

I will be doing some real research into the topic and the cost to determine if it’s the right thing to do. My gut says it is.  There is a one time chance to get these cells.  So we have 7 months to get this decision right.  The pressure of parenting have already begun.

(Side note: Jessica informed her last aunt who was ill over Easter about the pregnancy so now the whole family is officially in on the secret)

It’s a Monday

The Monday after somewhat of a “Spring Break” for me.  I spent the morning ensuring I addressed everything that needed to be address over the past week and sent some “Welcome Back” reminders to my customers.  It’s always tough to get back into the groove of grinding when the weather is so nice out. The fact that Jessica took the week off to spend time with her cousin from out of state just added to the fact I wasn’t fully ready to back into it.

To make matters worse I’ve haven’t felt the greatest the past few days.  I am thinking its allergies.  It’s not like a cold, but I have a feeling of fluid behind my ears and my eyes have been bothering me.  The fluid in the ear is setting off my equilibrium and is super annoying.  Constantly feeling like your underwater.

I really don’t like to complain.  No one really wants to hear you whine about how you don’t feel well so I try to proceed as normally as possible.  My issue is I have two competing characteristics.  I really don’t like taking medication, prescription or over-the-counter, but at the same respect I’m a hypochondriac (self-diagnosed). So of course when I feel off my game for a couple days in a row and it’s not the typical feeling of a cold I go into panic mode and start googling.  Maybe there was lead paint in the demo I just did and I have lead poisoning (even though I completed a home test that resulted in a negative reading, but nevertheless test can fail) or my lymph nodes are swollen in my neck because it could be a tumor (thanks Mayo Clinic).  Why I look online I will never know because I always read the worst and then have to convince myself it is just allergies and to relax.  There is nothing in pain, there is no major discomfort or cause for concern, so I’ll take it day by day to see how it changes.  No need for rash decisions.

I can’t believe I’m the only person that acts in this irrational manner knowing full well it is irrational and I have to believe there are people out there who can’t convince themselves to calm down and go full blown with their self-diagnosed rare illness.  Maybe some day I’ll mature and stop researching online.  If I’m that concerned I should probably stop playing doctor and visit a real one.

Car “Shopping”

Saturday started with a skipping of the gym.  I have this thing that if I wake up and I’m sore/my body is tired I listen and take the day off.  Exercise/wellness is a marathon, not a sprint to an end result so taking a day off to let my body recuperate is 100% a good thing.  When I was younger, it psychology would have screwed me up.  I would have hated myself for skipping and would have felt lazy.  As I get older I do realize it does take me longer to rebuild from a string of intense workouts and injury avoidance is very important.

Instead, I completed removing the wall between the kitchen and dining room, by taking out the all metal door frame that we put in when they built the house.  It is very uncommon in residential real estate to have metal casings and they are pain in the ass.  They attached to the subfloor underneath the hardwood flooring so I had to dissect my floors to get them out.  Of course, I have 2 in my kitchen (3 technically, still debating if the door to the basement will stay as is). It is super nice to see it all wide open I will say. Keeps me excited to continue working.

Soon after getting casings removed, it was time for Jessica’s oil change so we headed out to the Nissan dealership.  Instead of waiting in the crowded waiting room we walked around outside looking at the new and used cars at the Nissan dealership and adjacent Toyota and Honda dealerships.  Of course when you walk around a dealership on a Saturday afternoon you get flooded with salespeople trying to close a deal.  I appreciate that they are doing their job and that’s how they make a living, but when I straight up tell you we are just killing time and seeing whats out in the market, then stop wasting your time.  Car salespeople, a big generalization I know, have an ego about sales.  As if they all think they can sell ice to Eskimos.  It drives me insane to think they can just pressure people into a sale and they will feel good about the process.  I believe in consultative sales, not transactional sales.  Salespeople who truly help and guide actual buyers is the best approach.  I do, however, enjoy conversing with strangers and playing game with them so it’s fun to talk about things other than buying a car and seeing them squirm wishing they never started the conversation to begin with.  Needless to say, we didn’t buy a car prior to her oil change being done.  We will soon be in the market as her lease is up in December right after we have a newborn.  Great timing!  We will probably buy a used car at that point rather than lease again, the mileage restriction are a little tough on our driving habits so we will see what we decide on as the time gets closer.

Follow-Up

Yesterday we had our follow-up visit with the MFM doctors just to ensure everything was still looking good two weeks after the initial visit.

I’d like to say I feel confident everything is progressing smoothly.  They told us everything looks good/normal.  The Dr made a joke that he didn’t know what college they would graduate from, but everything looked right for a 9 weeks old fetus.  I’m sure he uses that joke 100 times a day…….

So why don’t I have total confidence you ask? The office is associated with a teaching hospital, so our ultrasound was done by a resident Dr with a much more experienced tech looking on.  They started the ultrasound through the abdomen, just as they had the first time, and stated they would follow that with a transvaginal scan.

The resident Dr. had the toughest time finding the fetus, she received a lot feedback from the senior tech.  I know everyone has to learn, and I am very patient with that fact, but when you are looking for solid answers on the healthiness of your child it is a little anxiety causing.

Because the fetus was so small they were having trouble getting clear pictures.  They kept saying things like, “Well I think this is the whole thing” and “I think I got the whole image”.  I was on pins and needles the whole time but anticipated much stronger images when they completed the transvaginal scan.

After they were satisfied with the results of the abdominal scan they left the room to consult with the attending physician.  The physician entered and stated everything looked normal and make his college comment.  They then handed us a print of the sonogram and said we were all set.  No having the transvaginal scan made me a little uneasy.  It would have been so much more clear and confirming of the all clear.  I should have said something, but when it come to medicine I usually let Jessica take the lead.  Since she is a nurse she understands this stuff more than I.  She didn’t say anything so I figured I should keep my mouth closed. I left the office wishing I said something.  I know the baby is only about the size of a jelly bean and isn’t a whole lot “human-looking” at this point, but the sonogram they gave us kind of looks like an octopus.  I know neither one of us has any octopus genes in our family.

I will need to trust that they saw enough to call it as normal for the time being.  They know what to look for and what is normal so I have to trust in them.  I still feel I need to be cautious like walking on egg shells.  Luckily we will follow up next week with Jessica’s primary OB and see what he has to say.

The MFM Dr brought up doing 1st trimester genetic testing for down syndrome.  We hadn’t really thought about it before.  Would we do anything different if we found out it had down syndrome? If no, was it worth testing? Are their any dangers to the test?  We have a lot to find out first, but I can’t imagine doing anything different if we found out they had down syndrome.  I guess there too I would need to do research, but it still seems to me we would play with the card dealt.  You can’t control everything and never will be able to.  All we have is love to give.  We of course hope for the healthiest of results, but any which way they will be loved.

If you have some personal feeling on this I would enjoy hearing from you.

I need a burger

Yesterday felt highly productive and I guess overall it was.  The day flew by and I got lots of nagging work tasks completed.

I hit up Home Depot, to make a couple small changes in the kitchen design plan.  So now I can mull over the changes and make sure I got it all figured out.  The order is due by April 9th so my time is ticking, but I am feeling more confident.

Dinner time came, and Jessica was craving a Philadelphia roll from our local Sushi joint.  So she ordered it and I volunteered to go pick it up.  Since Jessica hasn’t been feeling 100% and her taste buds are all over the place, I hate cooking a full meal for just me to eat.  So I as driving to get her sushi roll, I drove by Rose’s Dairy which recently opened for the season.  That’s it!  I immediately wanted a Butch Burger.  Their perfectly cooked, melt in your mouth, 1/2 pound burger patty with cheese, mayo, lettuce, tomato, onion, and pickles.  I know, I know, it’s not vegan, but sometimes you just need something.  I just got the burger.  No fries, no onion rings, no milkshake, although each was equally appealing.  Best decision of the day!  The burger was amazing and everything I hoped for.  Some people say eating vegan you lose the taste for meat, and I will have to disagree.  I think that burger was better than ever since it had been weeks since I had red meat.  No regrets.  Everything in moderation and enjoy life. Tomorrow I will go back to no meat and dream of my next Butch burger.